Thoughts on Crying

Life doesn’t have any meaning;

All I do is cry,

And it will never end.

 

Did I only come to this Earth to cry?

 

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It is a strange word, to cry.

It seems to rip apart the silent space

To let emotions through,

Raw and garbled;

The wailing of an infant,

It brings to mind.

It achieves nothing,

Is only an outburst,

Unrefined.

If I could channel this feeling,

To make something new,

Instead of ever-decreasing circles.

 

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They say crying on your own

Is the worst thing

Because there’s no-one to see your tears.

I prefer to think of it

As a petition to God.

 

 

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A Letter From One Star-Crossed Lover To Another

I’m reaching across cyberspace to let you that I’m ok.

I’m sad, but I’m ok.

I remember something you said: when all the pain has gone, only love remains.

I believe you are right, though I cannot pretend to be over the pain.

But I love you as the ocean loves the moon,

And like the moon, you are the light in my dark;

Just knowing you’re out there makes me feel ok.

Please do not be sad.

Think not of what you’ve lost,

But what we found together.

The memories will last in our hearts forever.

A Part Of Me

Somehow I’m supposed to move on from you

After what we had

How can the world ever seem so magical again?

How will my childhood come to life again?

You’ve left a crater in my life

I feel it like a missing tooth

I know I can survive

But to never see you again-

It’s like I’ve left a part of me in another country.

 

A part of me is still out there,

Roaming the world.

But when that part of me dies,

Will I feel it?

Will I survive?

 

Why was it I had to give away a part of myself

To feel whole?

 

I gave you so much of myself,

All my secrets, all my pain.

You held me and said it was okay.

Maybe I just needed someone to be there

I was so low.

 

And I think I did the same for you,

But you wanted it to continue

I wanted to flee.

Why was it I wanted to leave behind this part of me?

 

I need to grow,

But I need to do it on my own now.

 

I’m not ready for commitment,

To give away my heart.

 

I only gave you

A piece of my soul –

No, you had it all.

 

You had my soul,

But not my life,

And not my heart,

My friend.

 

I’m sorry I broke your heart

But I need to be selfish.

I cannot give up everything I planned.

I have my life ahead of me, you see,

And now you’ve fixed me.

Thanks.

Almost five hours ago…

Almost five hours ago, you left my house.

It’s entirely possible I may never see you again.

I’ve washed you from my skin, but never from my mind.

I hope you think it was all worthwhile.

Right now, a crater fills my head.

That’s the impact you had.

You were a fiery comet falling from the sky –

Something happened here.

My life has been re-aligned.

How could I ever forget?